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I’m killing myself
Killing myself
From the inside out
I’m living in the body that should
belong to someone else
I’m trying not to eat
I’m praying just to be pretty
Day after day
I’m dragging that scale out
Just to bring myself down
I do workouts
I try so very hard
But my body won’t change
And my heart’s making that sound
Whenever I feel alone
Whenever I long to fall in love
It’s something girls want
And I’m scared to death because
No one will fall in love with me
No one will ever care
I’m so focused on becoming pretty
that I’m sorry if I haven’t fixed my hair
I’m sorry I can’t talk to you
It’s just the way I am
The more you talk to me right now
Will tear my façade down
I’m scared because I’m alone
I’m scared because I hate myself
I’m scared because I want to be
Someone I’m not
I want to have bone and skin,
No muscle - no way
I want to be a pretty girl
Please don’t talk to me today
I’m scared you’ll leave me
For somebody else;
For a girl who has the body I want
Here goes nothing
Goodbye
Boom
Killing myself
From the inside out
I’m living in the body that should
belong to someone else
I’m trying not to eat
I’m praying just to be pretty
Day after day
I’m dragging that scale out
Just to bring myself down
I do workouts
I try so very hard
But my body won’t change
And my heart’s making that sound
Whenever I feel alone
Whenever I long to fall in love
It’s something girls want
And I’m scared to death because
No one will fall in love with me
No one will ever care
I’m so focused on becoming pretty
that I’m sorry if I haven’t fixed my hair
I’m sorry I can’t talk to you
It’s just the way I am
The more you talk to me right now
Will tear my façade down
I’m scared because I’m alone
I’m scared because I hate myself
I’m scared because I want to be
Someone I’m not
I want to have bone and skin,
No muscle - no way
I want to be a pretty girl
Please don’t talk to me today
I’m scared you’ll leave me
For somebody else;
For a girl who has the body I want
Here goes nothing
Goodbye
Boom
Literature
I am an Artist.
I am an artist;
An artist of deep words
and elongated sentences.
I cannot stroke a paper
and create beauty
with paint and pencils.
The beauty I create, though,
is made to be read;
understood.
I know,
no one likes the person
complaining,
but surely
others must have noticed
the inequalities
between one
who creates worlds with paint
and another
who creates worlds with ink.
We are one in the same.
We have one purpose really.
We are all artists.
Literature
Into The Mental Abyss
Into The Mental Abyss:
To the edge of the very abyss I have travelled.
With worn feet, gone bloodied and bare;
Dragged upon stones that stretch like sharpened spines,
Leaving tattered spoils of flesh in my wake...
Even so, I am incapable of halting;
Like a zombie, I remain numb and hypnotised.
Shambling ever onward, toward the glimmer of light.
Eager to be behold the 'she' that awaits me:
A wonderous wellspring of inspiration and knowledge;
Perfect, yet fragile, in both shape and form...
It is her majesty, her radiance,
That leaves me drained...
Alone in the depths, I am humbled and awed.
Yet the admiration that I feel soon turns corrupt
Literature
He is Art
He is art.
His hands are the right size,
and his smile is perfectly lopsided.
His eyes are dark,
but in the sun they're brighter than you can imagine.
They draw you in.
He's addictive.
His abs are defined the right amount.
His arms are long enough to wrap around you,
and hold you.
He is art.
He can make you laugh when you do not want to,
but make you want to so badly.
You come to him when there is no one around,
even when there is.
He lets you borrow his strength and if that's not enough,
he lends more help.
He gives me everything.
He is art.
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Hey guys. So in case you haven't noticed from the poem title or whatever, I'm talking about my body and the way I look. I was never happy with my body, and this summer my whole attitude about it plummeted. I started eating less, and I would just workout about 3-4 times a week which was good for me. But plans started getting in the way, so I often had less time to workout. Even before this, I would drag my scale out in the morning and weigh myself. But now I weigh myself basically after I eat anything.
I don't really want to share my weight with you guys, but I guess it's okay. Before summer started I weighed around 153 pounds which was usual for me. But after school was let out, I had more time to be active and more time to do sports and camps and whatnot. I'll never forget losing 7 pounds (to 146) because I had never lost so much weight before. I was starting to feel more confident about myself, and I was starting to feel like this was going to be a good summer. The summer I was going to wear a bikini and feel confident in it. (Mind you I've never worn a bikini before.)
But camps started getting in the way and a drama program, too, so I never had that much time to workout by myself.
And today I gained back those five pounds, and I just started sobbing. I've never literally felt so depressed ever.
I know I'm probably obsessed with my weight, but it's something personal, and I needed to vent through literature.
The ending's pretty obvious; I hate myself enough that I would kill myself. But I never do because I know that things always get better.
I don't really want to share my weight with you guys, but I guess it's okay. Before summer started I weighed around 153 pounds which was usual for me. But after school was let out, I had more time to be active and more time to do sports and camps and whatnot. I'll never forget losing 7 pounds (to 146) because I had never lost so much weight before. I was starting to feel more confident about myself, and I was starting to feel like this was going to be a good summer. The summer I was going to wear a bikini and feel confident in it. (Mind you I've never worn a bikini before.)
But camps started getting in the way and a drama program, too, so I never had that much time to workout by myself.
And today I gained back those five pounds, and I just started sobbing. I've never literally felt so depressed ever.
I know I'm probably obsessed with my weight, but it's something personal, and I needed to vent through literature.
The ending's pretty obvious; I hate myself enough that I would kill myself. But I never do because I know that things always get better.
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I have not yet read this, but I am faving it so that I can clean out my envelope as it is in the thousands. I will read this when I can. If I like it, I will keep it faved, and let you know. PLEASE DON"T RESPOND TO THIS COMMENT!